I've only just recently begun to have dreams...then again may be I've only just recently started to remember them...either way I figured it might be a good idea to record them. Some humans seem to think that there's more to dreams than just random firing of synapses. Anyway, I've decided to dedicate this section of my journal to dreams.
I feel myself floating high above an empty marsh, it's dark and the only sound I can hear is the cooing of some sort of bird...it's an owl I can see it's big yellow eyes watching me as I float through the grass. slowly I'm getting closer to the ground, and before I know it my bare feet are just dragging on the ground, before I'm dropped like a rag doll to the cold ground.
Suddenly I hear Tosh calling my name, she sounds scared and really far away. I push my self up off the ground and stand up, but I'm not in the marsh any more I'm in a hospital, in a paper gown, I'm cold and weak, it's hard to stay standing up. I end up groping at the walls for support as I run toward Tosh's pleading voice. I try to shout for her, to tell her that it's going to be ok, that I'm coming to help her but I can't, I don't have a voice.
A noise behind me makes me turn in time to see the bright over head lights being shut off, the darkness terrifies me, it's empty and unknown, I don't want to be a part of it. I start to run, as fast as I can, I just have to keep in the light. but the darkness is gaining on me, I see a set of doors just ahead and I try to get there before the darkness. Reaching the door just in time I push as hard as I can, and they finally open. A blinding blue light fills my eyes and i can't see anything, a shrill ear splitting sound makes me fall to my knees screaming, it hurts so much I don't think I can stand it much longer...
I woke up that morning screaming, dripping with sweat, my ears still ringing. It has to mean something...it has to. 
take my breath;;, dream log
