Hey guys, it's the loveable huggable Blaze. For me, The Last Haven has been a blessing in my life. It's been one of the only things that I look forward to day to day, and, unfortunately, it has died. To me, TLH was...friendship, love, acceptance, and most of all, family. All of you are my family, and I hope you see it that way too. There have been good times, and there have been bad. The best times were the days that everyone was together, Ghost was still here, shadow and shadic posted often, when Tony was here as a friend and not a foe, and no one hesitated to speak their mind. And we all know the worst times; when Tony turned on us once more, when it died the first time and we managed to revive it, and now.

I ask you this: always remember TLH. Never make it a memory that you push to the back of your mind and forget. Make yourself remember it if you must, whether or not it makes you sad or happy, keep it always. Cherish these memories. Lock them in your heart if you must, but never forget.

Some of us became friends on the original board, the Chaos Boards (Switch, Shadow, Less, Sas, myself). Others (Liz, Rana) met later on this board or CoM. There have been other boards (The Switch Boards, Sas's Boards) where other people were found and transferred to others (Shadic), but that's not what's important. What's important is that we're here today. We found each other, and we changed because of it.

The Happy Times were definitely the best of my life. I honestly don't think I'd be here if it weren't for the fun and happiness I felt on these boards. I remember the times when we'd all gang up on Liz because she was the "newbie". Then, we went too far and had to back off for fear of losing her. I'm glad we stopped. If we hadn't, I would never have had my Oniisan...or chan. I can never remember. Also, I remember when Ghost and Switch changed places, and I never suspected a thing...at first at least. I remember being so confused when I found out. I also remember when they helped me find out that I wasn't Bi at all. That I was gay.

The Bad Times were deeply depressing and very painful. I know none of us want to remember these times, but if we remember the good, we have to remember the bad. I'll start with the first bad time, and probably the worst, for me at least. Many of you may not have been ther for this, but that's okay. I'm not afraid to share this memory. It was fairly close to the beginning of my membership on The Chaos Boards. I don't remember exactly who was there, but I know that Sas, shadow, and tony were. You may know what I'm talking about from that sentence alone. I had just moved to Virginia, and I was, and there's no other word for it, depressed. I didn't want to move. I didn't want to open my eyes every morning. I wanted to stop breathing, to stop my heart from beating. I wanted to die. And I almost did. I started a topic, and I told everyone that I was going to commit suicide. Of course, they all protested, some were disbelieving. I had the knife at my heart. I almost did it. But I couldn't do it. I couldn't put you guys or my family through the pain that I felt. I forced myself to live. And I'm glad I did. If I hadn't, I wouldn't have met all of you wonderful people. Next, of course, would be the destruction of The Chaos Boards and CoM. And after that were the numerous attempts to destroy TLH. We didn't feel safe anymore. I know I didn't. But we stayed together through it all...until this last one. It shook us to the core, and most people either stopped posting or severely decreased the amount they did.

I know, there seem to be more bad times than the good, but that's only because the bad times affect us more and are more prominant in our memories. But now, it's time to say goodbye. Not to each other, but to our home, our haven, our boards. See, this was OUR boards. Not Switch's boards, not my boards, OUR boards. We all contributed, we all kept it alive, we all love this place. Now, it's a memory. A good one...

No, it's not a memory. It's part of us now, and we are a part of it. That's the only way to put it. Please, join us on New Wings, the new boards. It's not a replacement, and never will be. It's a new memory to begin. A new chapter in our lives together. I hope I see you there. Goodbye for now, my friends.

Blaze/Jon

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