My Written Stuff

[Angelus]

The Last Song I’m Wasting on You

You’ve got understand.
You’re a liar.
You think the world loves you.
You’re dead wrong.
The world would kill you if it had the chance.
I would hurt you if I had the chance.
I never had this feeling before.
It seems so true.

Why did you have to deceive me?
You lied to me again and again.
Now I know the truth,
And this is the last song I’m wasting on you.

You’ve got to see some day.
You’re not as great as your father made you out to be.
If he knew the truth he’d disown you.
But I’d never tell him that.
Secrets can remained buried.
I really have no problem,
But when you turned around and killed my soul,
I got this feeling and I turned so cold.

Why did you have to deceive me?
You lied to me again and again.
Now I know the truth,
You’ll never be anything,
And this is the last song I’m wasting on you.

You’ll never see, I found that out long ago.
You’ll never mature.
You’ll never try to be anything more,
Than the loser that you are.

I’ll try not to make this sound childish.
I’ll try not to make it so you can’t understand.
Cause I can’t understand why you’d want to be the devil’s right hand.
Is it because you’re tired of pretending?
Pretending you’re something that you’re not?

I’ll try to say this in the nicest possible way.
But it’s all your fault.
And it’s true.
It’s true but you won’t accept it.
So you place the blame on me.

I through crying myself to sleep over you.
I’m through with you hurting me like you do.
You hurt me ways no one else could.
You hurt me ways no one really should.

You think you can control me.
My emotions remained locked in my heart.
And this is the only way I know how to express it.
Maybe one day you’ll wake up and realize that you’re so wrong.
Until then, and forever more,
Goodbye to you, goodbye to you.

-End

[Sunrise]

I like it. A lot . Good job

[Angelus]

thanks, something else:

So Far Away

I don’t know what to do.
You’re so far away.
And I reach for you.
And I’m worried.
And I’m scared.
Scared you’ll go so far away.
Never return home.
You have a place in my heart.
Just had to let you know.
You have someone who cares.

If I could,
I’d take your place.
Let the pain wash away in the storm.
As you finally come to be.
Someone you could love.
Someone you can trust.

Don’t let go of your light yet.
I want to see you there.
Standing in the light of life.
You think you’ll never be.
Lost in the river of your broken dreams.
Allowing yourself to be swept away in your depression.
I wish I could…
If I could,
I’d steal all the pain away.
Take it all away and drown it.

Let yourself give in.
Looks like the fight is over and you’ve lost.
You’ve lost all the faith,
You once had in yourself.
But the mirror lies.
It can’t see who you really are.
And it lies,
It lies to you.
Showing you the outside.

If I could,
I’d take your place.
Let the pain wash away in the storm.
As you finally come to be.
Someone you could love.
Someone you can trust.

I see the weak flame burning in the dark.
It brings more light than you ever thought you’d see.
It brings hope.
But then the rain fall.
And then the pain.
And then the dark.
Extinguishes the flame in your hand.
The warmth in your heart.
And you lie there cold and broken.

And there’s nothing I can do.
You’re so far away.
And I reach to you.
But you pull away.
Don’t think its possible to be loved.
But look around you.
You’ll see everyone is here.
No one has left you.
No one has forsaken you.

But you refuse to see.
Everything around you just has to be,
Something that hates you more.

And I can’t pull you back.
All I can do is sit here and watch you bleed.
And watch in silence.
Not protesting the blood shed.
But you wouldn’t hear me if I screamed anyway.
And I remain in silence in the dark.

If I could,
I’d take your place.
Let the pain wash away in the storm.
As you finally come to be.
Someone you could love.
Someone you can trust.
Someone you won’t hate.
Someone you could take to look at everyday.
Starring back at you in the mirror.
You never have to hate again.

But you wouldn’t see me.
Screaming out your name.
Even if you saw me,
Screaming to you.

And when you refuse to hear me.
I feel so weak.
And alone in this fight to save you.
But I also know I’m not.
But I also know I could save you if I really tried.

I want to wipe away the tears you cry.
I want to wash away the pain you embrace.
I want to steal away from this world.
Take you away from all this pain you know.

I wanted to say something caring in this.
But even if you heard this.
You wouldn’t care.
Thinking it was all a lie.
Turning away, trying to hide.
So I have to scream.
I have to shatter,
And let you put me back together.
Just to be able to get your attention.

If I could,
I’d take your place.
Let the pain wash away in the storm.
As you finally come to be.
Someone you could love.
Someone you can trust.
Someone more like the person you wanted to be when you were six.
Someone more like the person you love.
Someone more like the person you long to be in your dreams.
Someone more like you.
But truly now.

And I can’t let it end this way.
And I can’t let it end today.
And I can’t let you die this way.
I’m lost trying to save you.

I’m lost,
And I’m scared,
And I’m worried,
And I’m so far away from you.
Too far away from you.
The distance separates us.
But the life unites us.
And the night holds something in common for us both.
The cold, remnants of life once lived.
And cold defeat.

If I could,
I’d take your place.
Let the pain wash away in the storm.
As you finally come to be.
Someone you could love.
Someone you can trust.
And if I could,
I’d send you away.
Away from all that hurts you.
Away from all that matters.
Away from all which could possibly,
Drive you farther down.

And I know I can’t save you.
But I try,
Relentlessly failing.
With each breath I take I know I lose you more and more.
With each breath I take I know I can’t save you.
But, God, I wish I could.
But, God, I wish the distance would vanish.
That way I could save you.
That way I could be closer to you.
That way you wouldn’t have to hide.

If I could,
I’d take your place.
Let the pain wash away in the storm.
As you finally come to be.
Someone you could love.
Someone you can trust.
If I could,
I’d take your place.
Let the pain wash away in the storm.
As you finally come to be.
Someone you could love.
Someone you can trust.

-End

Explanation: it's about my friend.

[Angelus]

(ugh, double post.)

Frozen Inside

You’re so frozen inside.
You’re too numb to feel.
I think you should open your eyes.
Wake up and see the truth.

You’re too biased to understand,
All the shit you putting me through.
It’s driving me crazy and insane.
Stay the fuck away from me and I’ll stay away from you.

Touch my friends,
Hurt them or worse,
I’ll pound you down into the dirt,
Think I won’t?
You think I’m too weak.
I’ll beat you to the ground and make you bleed.

You think I won’t lay a hand on you.
I’ll prove you wrong and I’ll hurt you so bad.
You get me so angry that I want to smash you to bits.
You want to make fun of me and my friends?
Then I’ll just piss you off even more.

You think I’m gonna take this lying down?
You think I’m gonna let this happen once more.
You think I won’t erase you from my life.
I’ll erase you from the world.

You’re so frozen inside.
You’re so dead inside.
You’re worse than me.
You’re worse than me.

I’m sick of all the lies you tell.
No one will believe them,
After I say what I have to say they’ll know the truth,
And your game will be over.
I’m sick of all the lies you spread.
There all made up and only true inside your head.
So for once, do me this:
Leave me and my friends alone.
If you don’t I’ll make you bleed and cry in pain.

I once thought I was the cruel one,
But I was only cold to protect myself.
Now I see I made the right choice,
Now I’m glad I didn’t open up to you.
Cause then you would have something on me.
So then you would be able to crush me.

I’m glad I never trust you or him.
I’m glad I never gave you anything too personal to hurt me with,
And now it’s over, you can’t hurt me,
Can’t you see that I’ve won?
Now can’t you just stay away from me,
All for the rest of my years,
Stay away.

-End

Explanation: this is about my ex-friend who keeps spreading lies about me.

[Mandy]

I really like those. So, like, you a musician? In a band or something? You might've mentioned it somewhere else. I probaly forgot.

[Angelus]

I've never mentioned it here. Though I recorded some tracks (instrumentals.) If you wanna hear I can send them to you.

[Mandy]

-sigh- I wish. This is a really old small computer. So, I can't download ANYTHING. -tear- But, in a few months I'll be able to. Like, on a different computer. So, maybe I can then.

[Sunrise]

He's good, isn't he? lol *claps* I like.

[Angelus]

thanks.

[ryutombstone]

I already know at this stage that you're a kick-ass writer!

[Angelus]

Thanks.

Um...this is a WIP. I'm stuck on it, and I need help.

Catherine

Catherine.
Where have you gone?
Where have you left to today?

Catherine.
Why has my heart sunk.
Why has the world grown so dark?

And Catherine,
Where has your love gone?
Where has the light in your eyes gone?
Catherine.

Have you fallen once more?
Have you finally hit rock bottom?
Are you praying someone will find you,
And put you back together.

I can be the one,
Who wipes away every tear you cry.
I can be the one,
Who holds you while you sleep.
I can be the one,
Who pulls the trigger for you.

Catherine.
Love blossoms and dies,
All like that,
It dies in the cold.
Will we be the same way?

(All i have so far...ugh where the hell is urban when I need her [help])

[Sunrise]

I have a question......whos' Catherine? Or is it just a name you picked?

[Angelus]

It's just a name I like...I like how it sounds....yeah, I'm a freak.

[Sunrise]

No, I understand....lol I was just curious

[Angelus]

Ugh...I SO gotta finish that song.