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Joined: Nov '05
Crow is of athletic build, standing at 5'10" and weighing 175 lbs. His skin is on the paler side in comparison to a typical human, and a medium length of graying black hair sits on his head. His physical appearance is completely unremarkable in most ways. Those who meet Crow tend to comment on his vibrant purple eyes, which seem to dull every color around them. A dozen scars trace their way along his body, most likely coming from a harsh upbringing that suggests the early graying of his hair, but most of them are covered by his everyday garb.
Though he's a Jedi, Crow prefers civilian clothing for the sake of indiscretion.But if he's forced into a more formal role of his allegiance, he'll typically be seen in midnight black Jedi robes.
Crow knows how to be courteous and polite, but has trouble being vocal beyond the normal pleasantries. He's more of the silent type, and social encounters more often than not end in uneasiness. He's very opinionated, but keeps his thoughts to himself as many of them don't agree with Jedi customs. However, he's good at heart and never regretted becoming a Jedi. His initial demeanor can be seen as cold and even threatening to some, as his default expression is one of frowning, or of his brows furrowed in deep thought, and people avoid him because of this. He enjoys solitary life, as he learned long ago that few had any genuine interest in who he really is.
He's a very relaxed person and rarely gets angry. Other Jedi think of him as a silent thinker, and therefore very wise for his age. And while Crow's thirst for knowledge is insatiable and the topic of philosophy an addiction, he sees himself as more naive as anyone else in the galaxy. However, his curiosity to know how the universe works was accompanied by a certain work ethic, and it's led him to become very knowledgeable in the Force.
Balance is of great importance to Crow. He knows spending all his time seeking the secrets of the Force can be unhealthy, and even dangerous, so he tends to indulge in the simpler pleasures of life. He takes care of his body as best he can through exercise and refinement of his lightsaber combat.
The icy and unforgiving world of Ilum is where Crow's story began.
The boy grew up in one of the humanoid encampments established on the planet. Ilum was renowned for its priceless crystals hidden in the caves within the barren wasteland that comprised Ilum's surface, so those brave enough to try their hand at becoming rich were attracted to the site, eventually culminating in many communities of those seeking riches. The planet was devoid of the soft hearted, so the company Crow grew up with tempered his personality into a hard one.
Crow never knew his parents, and the inhabitants of where he grew up didn't seem to have the faintest clue as to where he came from. Zeb, the owner of the local cantina, became his unofficial guardian, taking him out of the cold and giving him a home when he was found nearly dead just outside, half buried in snow and unconscious. From that day on Crow would grow up with a father, even if the twi'lek bar owner wasn't his kin by blood.
As the years went by, many of the people staying at the encampment came and went, and soon Crow only knew his foster father Zeb, the cantina, and the freezing landscape of Ilum to be the constants in his life. The encampment was almost at the end of the habitable land on the planet, so the most adventurous and rough travelers came through, hoping to strike gold in places no person had ever tread before. Very few Republic soldiers were stationed in town, and sometimes Crow felt like those soldiers were the only kind and good-natured people on the entire planet, except for Zeb. When he was young they gave him the desserts from their rations, and they would play games with him to pass the time.
The day after Crow's ninth birthday was when the first tragedy of his life struck.
Riding under the cover of a blizzard, a gang of pirates who'd been particularly unlucky at finding crystals came to town, looking for a different and more nefarious way to get credits. They rode in, killing everything in their path and pillaging anything of value. Even though The Republic was the governing force of the planet, too few soldiers were present to defend the camp, and they were killed just like the others.
Zeb did what he could to hide Crow and protect him from the onslaught, but sadly it wasn't enough. Zeb was shot and killed while he was trying to hide his son, and Crow watched his father die in his arms. The pirates came across the boy and decided he would have a different fate than so many who'd been killed during the raid.
The children of the camp were taken into slavery, and Crow was swept along into a life of servitude. The pirates who kidnapped them were the worst kind, and Crow was either beaten or tortured if he didn't obey them, just like the other slaves. If he didn't perform a given task flawlessly, he was whipped mercilessly, until most of his torso was covered in permanent scarring.
For months he lived like this, the death of the man who'd taken him in and cared for him fueling a deep and primal hatred toward those he served. He was defiant whenever he had the chance, and it was only until the pain became too unbearable did he do as they asked. The pirates were of such a horrifying nature, that once when Crow managed to get one killed through disobeying an order, they laughed and patted him on the back instead of punishing him. He'd expected to die that day, but seeing the mens' complete disregard for life made him hate them even more.
As it turned out, the Republic didn't easily forgive those who slaughtered their soldiers. In the dead of night a squadron of commandos came, bringing down the fury of the Republic and being led by a woman in thin brown robes and wielding a sword of blue light. They destroyed every last member of the gang, and found Crow in a pit with the other half starved and half crazed children.
The woman in charge of the rescue was Chanen Odin, a Knight in the Jedi Order. She was a twi'lek just like Zeb, and seeing her after being subjected to such horrors for months on end was the happiest moment of Crow's life. He latched onto her loving demeanor and kindness, intending to never let go.
She seemed to enjoy being such a bright light in Crow's life, but the life of a Jedi was a busy one, and it wasn't long until she had to be called off planet for the business of her order. But Crow wasn't going to let her go like he let Zeb go.
He kicked, screamed and cried when Chanen said goodbye, not wanting to lose the only thing alive that he loved. Getting onto the drop ship was a heart wrenching experience for the both of them, and where Chanen had said her good byes, Crow still refused to let her leave.
As the drop ship took off, Crow's will to see her stay, fueled by all the pain and sorrow he'd felt since Zeb died, ignited a power in him he'd never felt before. He reached out with his mind, latching onto the ship Chanen flew away on with an invisible force, and pulled it back to the ground.
A stunned and disbelieving Chanen later emerged from the craft, reuniting with the boy who'd been so heartbroken to see her go. It was there that she vowed never to leave him again. Seeing a potential within Crow that the boy didn't understand, she decided to take him off planet to her home, where he would be trained as a Jedi. All Crow cared about was being with Chanen.
The process of becoming a Padawan was a difficult one for Crow, as the Jedi Council was hesitant to allow such a damaged boy to learn the power of their culture. But through the persistence of Chanen, they relented and enrolled him into the Order, simultaneously promoting Chanen to Jedi Master so she could train him.
She was younger than most Masters, and training Crow would be rocky over the coming years, especially in the beginning. It was very easy for Crow to control his emotions and prevent them from guiding his actions, but Chanen sensed a deep and troubling hurt within Crow rooted to his imprisonment on Ilum and the death of his foster father. All she could do was completely immerse her student within the teachings of the Jedi, and hope that time would heal his pain.
As Crow grew up in the Order and explored the galaxy with his master, he taught Chanen just as much as she taught him, whether it be through his naivety or his simple and profound views on life. What the Jedi taught to learn through discipline, control and sacrifice, Crow succeeded through emotion and bare empathy. He cared about those around them by sharing their pain and holding the emotional burdens too heavy to carry alone. It was a line the Jedi Masters saw as razor thin, wrought with the temptations of the dark side, yet Crow seemed immune to it. Sith used the power of emotions like anger and fear, while Crow used love and passion to fuel his desire to change fate.
Though Chanen was Crow's master, there was very little that could change the little boy who'd been found on Ilum. The darkness of his past was far behind him, yet the ideals that had been shaped through those experiences never left Crow, even as he was passing into the stages of manhood. He realized that the first time he'd ever used the Force was because of his love for Chanen, and he let that be the primary motivation for why he wanted to change the universe for the better.
At first what he felt for her was platonic, but an adult Crow eventually realized that what he felt for her was so much more. He was in love with her.
At first the realization of his feelings scared Crow, as the Jedi condemned such heresy. He didn't want to lose Chanen, or get kicked from the Order through such selfish reasons, so he buried it in the back of his mind for a long time. However, love would forever change how he looked at Chanen, and a more protective nature would grow from their relationship.
As mission after mission passed, and a seasoned and more proven Padawan meant more dangerous terrain, Chanen and Crow were sent into the heart of many galactic conflicts. Chanen was a clever master, but it wasn't enough to save her from a dozen situations that almost meant certain doom for her. But Crow was one of the most powerful Padawans in the Order, and his prowess in combat was unrivaled, as Chanen found out. He saved her time and time again, risking everything to keep her safe. Seeing such potential awed Chanen at times, causing her to struggle with romantic feelings of her own.
During an investigation on Hoth concerning smuggling of illegal spices, the goal of the two Jedi was to find the base of operations where the spice was coming through. Hoth’s environment was very similar to that of Ilum’s, and Crow was in his element. After an unforeseen storm left them stranded on the barren tundra, Crow’s strong will to keep Chanen safe and Chanen’s developing love interest in her Padawan would collide. Deadly temperatures on the planet meant any source of heat was invaluable, and it forced the two to become closer than ever before. It wasn’t long until such intimate contact manifested into more.
They survived the wreck on Hoth and found what they were looking for, but after Crow and Chanen left the icy world, their relationship was permanently transformed. Neither would openly admit to what happened, and for a while things seemed to go back to normal, but such a connection wouldn’t be destroyed easily. Chanen, who’s magnetism toward Crow strengthened over time, decided one night she would visit her Padawan’s chambers, and from then on the two would continue what had been started on Hoth.
Words were never exchanged concerning their romantic relationship. By day they were teacher and student, but by night their passion would take over. This would continue for a long time, as Crow’s silent nature and Chanen’s status as a Jedi Master meant neither of them wanted to risk destroying what they had.
Unfortunately, their bond would become stronger than Chanen anticipated. Crow’s ideals started to rub off on her, affecting her judgment and causing her to come off as strong willed and unruly to the other Masters. It didn’t take long for the wisdom of the Jedi leaders to uncover what was transpiring between Chanen and her student.
Chanen and Crow were eventually confronted by the Masters, and they were given an ultimatum—either stop what they were doing, or leave the Order. Painfully the two agreed to end their romantic connections, and as a result the Masters promoted Crow to the rank of Jedi Knight.
The day Crow became a full-fledged Jedi was the last time he saw Chanen. He would be assigned the same dangerous assignments he and Chanen had undertaken together, and she would remain at the Jedi Temple to train new underlings in the ways of the Force. Though contact between them wasn’t forbidden, Crow didn’t want to risk Chanen’s standing in the Order, so he cut himself out of her life. She didn’t attempt to get ahold of him either. The last day he saw her was as painful as the day he lost Zeb, and every day after that did little to lessen the pain. But he endured, and carried out the wishes of the Order to the letter.
To this day Crow still suspects that the Masters gave him his title to sever any obligatory connections Crow had to Chanen through his Jedi training. Out of that suspicion grew resentment, but Crow loved the Order almost as much as he loved Chanen, and he begrudgingly set aside his personal feelings for the greater good. He vowed to himself that someday he would see her again, but the time when he’d get the opportunity would never be for certain.
Today one would find Crow carrying out the will of the Order without hesitation, his missions taking him from rebel bases to the edges of Republic space. Death sits imminently beside him nearly every day, but he wouldn’t trade anything in the world for a different lifestyle. Except, perhaps, for a life with Chanen.