Bite my Tongue and Weep, 3 years later...

[k2nessa]

(yeah so we should have had a nice long break for the whole thing to sink in. This is three years later. As kanny said, we should new a yazawa-sensei NANA type thing where we have flashforwards? or flashbacks, now i'm confused. But yeah :] btw, this time, i'm requiring for everyone to not type actions for other characters, mind spelling/grammer errors, and make this a deeper plot than it is. enjoy!)

Isabelle stammered.
"T-the thing is...I really don't remember..." she said as she looked at her clenched fists in misery.
"That is all for today. Thank you, Miss Isabelle."
The scientists escorted her out and called in another person for inspection.
Isabelle was busy trying to hold her tears in.
She remembered that fateful accident three years ago.

Isabelle felt a cold rush throughout the whole of the Black Headquaters. She rushed to the main meeting hall to see if anyone else felt it. As she entered, there was a solemn silence, a sort of sad feeling that was only felt when...a soul had left the earth.
"What hap-" she was stopped by a fellow woman exorcist.
"They've sacrificed themselves." the woman whispered, as if it was taboo to speak about it.
"Who have..?"
"The ex-exorcists, Reila, Haru, and Clementine. The now-noahs, well, what am i saying. Dear me, they aren't in the now, they're gone."
Isabelle stared on. A blank expressionless face peered back at her through the endless mirrors in the meeting hall. There was only one, but she felt thousands.

Things had been horrid in the HQ since then. They had weekly inspections with intimidating scientists asking every single exorcist about their missions, if they had ever contacted Noahs, or if they knew anything else. Security was tight and there was no more fun in being an exorcist. Not that there ever was, but no one made friends with anyone anymore. All anybody ever thought about was competing and being competed with. She always felt lonely, the only one that ever kept her lonely heart at ease, well, was Shin. Even her sister had abandoned her for the competitive race.
She remembered her sister's words.
You had better become prepared too, the HQ is no longer what it used to be, it's ready for a new era.
Maybe she didn't want change. Isabelle sometimes dreaded the very word.

Remembering the past was a painful thing.

[Kan-Chan]

The screams were louder, the footsteps were approaching nearer, She could hear it, she could hear all of it.
The dark air was menacing, she was scared, she hadn't been this scare since so long ago, but now, she was shaking. The voices were loud, the were shrieks of exorcists. The laughter of the NOAHS. She was scared...she really was....
"Haru...Korinna...Isabelle....anybody..." She cried....
The footsteps grew louder and louder, suddenly, the door slid open.
*BAM*
"*gasp*....Kira...." Sumire muttered...as she looked around the room....there was no change, there she was...in that empty dark room that she was assigned to after...that incident.

"Kira...Rin...Haru...how could you all...abandon me here? In this place...that no longer can be called our home...it's a jail....it's....*sounds of a muffled cry*...not right....Kira....you..." As Sumire cried...at the nostalgic nightmare.....there waas a loud knock at her door.
"Miss. Olivia, the time for your inspection is here..." A women's voice said through the doors.
"Yes, coming..." Sumire replied as wore her brown longsleeve shirt and zipped up her black slim jeans.
As she opened her door and followed the scientist....she passed Isabelle.
"G-good morning..." Was all she could manage....she had longer talked much...not after those horrid three years of nothingness....and now...this. This lonliness was devastating...

"Isa-" Sumire couldn't continue.
"Please keep up, Miss. Olivia." The ladu told her sternly.
"Yes, I'm sorry." Sumire said as she continued to walk.

"Now, have you remembered anything? From back then?"
"No. I have not." Sumire was used to the questions, and nobody could read her mind here, not since the incident...with Haru and the NOAHS....

[ban-sun]

Aerie was sitting in her room, remembering about the what happened three years ago, when there was a sudden knock on her door. To her surprise, it was Hikari, but it seemed like she didn't come to have a friendly chat with her, but instead of a more serious matter. Hikari, her best friend, is also a scientist at the Asia Branch. She, the vice-chairman of the science squad, had to be the role model of her subordinates by clearly dividing the line between personal and work matters.
"So you've come...I was expecting someone else." Aerie said while avoiding eyes contact with Hikari.
Knowing that her presence was awkward, Hikari asked in a rather distant tone, "Are you ready, Ms. Lockwood?"
"Umm...ya," was all Aerie could managed to say in that uncomfortable tension.
Together, they left for the inspection room. As they were walking, Aerie sighed and stated, "Y'know, Hikari, if you're gonna ask me the stuffs about that, you might as well forget about it. You know what my answer is gonna be, right? It has always been the same old 'I don't remember, I'm sorry...' So why keep trying? I don't get the headquarter anymore. Everything has changed so much, including the people here, exorcists or not."
"Please keep silent, Ms. Lockwood." Hikari replied firmly.

[Kan-Chan]

As Aerie entered the Inspection room, Sumire gave her a slight smile.
"You're done, Miss.Olivia." The scientist told her.
"Thank You." Sumire answered politely as she left.
She walked out slowly and leaned against the wall, waiting for Aerie. Afterall, it'll end the same like always...like always...no one could get anything out of those that were actually back there. It was like, like a side effect from Haru's powers....no could read the minds of those that he had already been in contact with. Of course, Sumire remembered what happened back then, but they wouldn't be able to read what she knew. It was...Haru's and the NOAH's key to not letting the future generation know what happened back then.
No one could read what those who knew what had happened back then knew, and no one dared to tell what they knew. They knew they shouldn't and most if not all were close to each other and had already agreed to not tell a soul...even those that were no longer friends knew to keep what happened back then a secret.
"*sigh*....lunch again...." Sumire said...tired of the same routine for now over months of nothingness...
Exorcists were no longer treated as heros....now...they've become experiments....weapons.....anything but humans....
As Sumire waited patiently, knowing that they wouldn't get anything out of her....
"*sigh*...." Sumire continued to daze....thinking that no one is happy anymore...groups of friends are now teams of one...if they were lucky like Sumire...then maybe they'd have acquaintances....or maybe a group of two or three....Sumire now only had a few acquaintances and then about two friends she could trust...Isabelle and Aerie...

[ban-sun]

(umm...i wonder what happened to Kira, did he die? )

Aerie smiled back when she saw Sumire. Then she sat down, facing Hikari and another scientist, and the same old inspection began. "Ms. Lockwood, I believe you were at the incident three years ago, would you mind telling us what happened back then?" the other scientist asked.
"I'm sorry, but I don't recall anything." Aerie said with no expressions whatsoever. After all, she was used to this torture.
Hikari closed her eyes and suddenly sighed impatiently, "Aerie, would you please cooperate with us? This could lead us to some clues on how to destroy the Noahs or at least more information about them!"
"You know what my answer is right? Like I said, for the hundredth time, I don't have any recollections of that incident whatsoever. So please stop asking us survivors! Can't any of you understand English? WE DON'T REMEMBER." she looked at Hikari's eyes and stated without any hesitations.
Then she stood up at once and motioned Sumire to come with her.
"Ms. Lockwood! Please wai-" she could hear the other scientist calling after her, but she didn't care anymore. She was tired of these ridiculous inspections with the same questions and answers again and again.

[Kan-Chan]

(Yeah, he did...it'll be explained later. xDDD)

"Coming." Sumire said as she saw Aerie signal to her.
It ended...like always...
"Hey...Aerie....why must we stay here? Nothing is stopping us fom leaving...more accurately...nothing can stop us..." Sumire wondered to Aerie.
And Aerie should've understood....afterall, they were the ones that were in that incident, they were the ones who fought the NOAHS....none of the new generation of exorcists could even hurt them...the only ones who could level with them were the others that fought alongside them...that are no longer their friends....
"Can't...we just leave here? Us? With Isabelle...? What can the scientists do...?" Sumires question was right...what can they do....the exorcists just wasn't resisting the treatment...but that didn't meant the scientist could controll them if they wanted to stop....
"Aerie....why...do we have to stay...here! In this place that makes us remember...." Sumire cried...

[ban-sun]

"Sumire...admittedly, the thought of leaving here also came to me a lot of times...but, are you ready to quit being an exorcist? After all, didn't we all became exorcist in the first place to help people? To prevent akumas from doing the wrong things? If we just leave now, who will take up our duties? None of the new generations have the power to do that, nor do they have the will. All they think about is competing with each other." Aerie stopped to hug Sumire for she, too, wanted to leave this horrid place many many times, especially after Kira died.

[Kan-Chan]

(Haha, I forgot...didn't Kira and Aerie...kind of dated...well, Kira confessed? xDDD And to Sumire, Kira was like an older brother~! xD)

"I g-guess...but why must we still be so good at heart...when everyone here...treats us like dirt...they don't even apologize, thank, or anything...." Sumire complained into Aerie's chest.
This place was like prison....that's for sure...
"Aerie...can we go off HQ campus just for today...? To hav some fresh air and have a quiet and a nice chat during lunch...?" Sumire smiled...

[ban-sun]

"Sumire, you must not think like that. Don't let your heart rot away in darkness, don't you know that's how akumas are born? Whether people appreciate our good-doings or not doesn't matter, as long as we did the right things!" Aerie smiled yet she actually felt more like crying aloud.
"Sure, let's go to campus to have our lunches~! It's been a long time, ne?" she sighed while remembering about the happy times before.

[Kan-Chan]

"Don't hold it in..." Sumire whispered...but then she pulled Aerie's hand...
After a 10 minute walk....they were there....at Kira's place...
"Lets...go in...I hadn't had the courage to come in here....for all these years..." Sumire said...
As they walked in side by side....the room was the same as always...with bright shining light shining in, the house seemed to glow...their pictures were all there...
Pictures of Kira and Sumire, of Haru and Rin, of Clems and the group...of Aerie and Hikari...of...everyone....
"*cries*....Why...why...did it have to end this way....Kira-Nii...." Sumire cried...but continued to walk...
"It's my room...." Sumire told Aerie not sure if Aerie knew that she used to live at Kira's place.

[k2nessa]

(i'm really hoping shin-chan can make an appearance soon *hint hint nudge nudge kyonie!)

Isabelle counted the number of petals that represented each hour in her water lily clock.
"One...two..." she was used to this type of mundanely stupid exorcise. She had started doing it to keep her calm, she swore she'd go insane. The only time of day she was comfortable or at least a little happy was when Shin paid her his daily visits. They had admitted their feelings about a year ago and had gotten together. He was her only happiness in the now dreary HQ. If something ever happened to him...well...she think she'd probably kill herself. It wasn't like her sister was there to support her anymore anyway.

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Clarisse was walking in the HQ as she noticed many people glare at her. She was the number one exorcist three times in a row so far, there was no reason for them NOT to glare and hate. She was used to the competitiveness, in truth, was loved it. It gave her a reason to be happy of her achievements, to be happy for who she was. She had already given the scientist faction all of the information she knew of that incident long ago, and the reaon she didn't have to go in for questioning was because she had a little bit of money exchange to keep her out of it. It also helped that she was dating the hottest guy in the scientist faction, Keita Ryuzawa. The only reason she dated him was not because of love, but was due to the fact that he had major benefits. He was good looking, smart, rich, and was another reason for the fellow girl exorcists to loathe her with all their heart. She spotted Kei-kun a little ways ahead and ran up to him. She kissed him passionately and whispered a few sweet nothings.
He asked her if she wanted to hang out later. She smiled and gave him a yes for an answer.
"I'll be going to my room now."
His eyebrows raised.
"No, you can't come with me and i can't play with you. My bore of a sister is there and she's such an 'angelic being' that she wouldn't let you in. She thinks you're a playboy."
His face remained expressionless, then he smiled.
"Of course i'm not. I'm only captivated by you..." he hugged her without a pause then let her go.
Clarisse smiled as she walked away. She knew that he was also dating Layla and Jane, other exorcists, but she couldn't care less. As long as he had benefits and was able to offer them to her, she would be fine with their current state of relationship.
She opened the door and saw her sister counting the hours again.
"My god, are you insane? How interesting and adrenaline rushing is counting hours anyway? Hurry up and cook, i have another mission scheduled for 12 o' clock tonight."
That was a lie, she was supposed to meet up with Kei at that time. The things they usually did, well, she'd never say them to her sister, ever.
Belle was too innocent to understand the desires of men.
She heard her sister sigh and she promptly rolled her eyes.
"Belle, let me tell you one more time...adjust to the new rules, it'll help. It really will." She looked her sister in the eyes only to see no emotion in them. Clarisse looked away.
Isabelle walked into the kitchen and started cooking some curry.
She sang the song she always sung nowadays. Clarisse grimaced. Hearing that song was like having knives stabbed in her back. Once...twice...thrice...Clarisse walked into her separate room and shut the doors tightly.

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Isabelle smiled as she sang. The lyrics were melodic, every single word had a separate meaning. Singing made her heart feel light, but singing this song only made her heart scream.

"I smell the faint scent,
of your aroma,
so able to mend,
this broken feeling,

Kindly pull my ear softly,
And tell me that it will be fine,
Because when I open my eyes,
That voice will no longer be mine."

She repeated them to the same tune, gently and softly, over and over again. Shin would sometimes sing it to her to stop her crying. He had told her that he heard that girl sing it. A long time ago...that same girl who lived. The girlw as gone now.
She heard Clara close her door.

Related by blood, how could they feel so distant?

(tell me if maybe it's too mature (the men part) for this rp :[ i don't want anyone feeling uncomfortable)

[ban-sun]

"Thanks..." she replied as a tear or two rolled down her cheeks. When they finally arrived at Kira's place, Aerie felt like crying some more after seeing his picture. "Uh yeah, I remembered you used to live here~! Nice room...but somehow, it seemed like it's missing something...an empty feeling, don't you think?" she recalled the time when Kira was still alive.

[Kan-Chan]

"Ha....of course...it's e-eempty...Kira's gone....do you think....the way we are now, is best? I mean..look at Belle....she's...she's almost losing it...Shin is the only thing keeping her sane...and if he...I don't want to even say it...it still goes on missions...and that's only because we all lied for him...saying he was unconscious during th incident back then....what, what...." Sumire started to stutter now...
"I m-mean....Isabelle, she, she doesn't even think we're her friends anymore...she, she only wants...needs Shin...so what are we for...?" Sumire asked....as the time passed....the two kept quiet....
"Also...you know what Clarisse does...with that Scientist I mean....and she doesn't even love him...." Sumire almost said that sentence with disgust.

[ban-sun]

"I don't know, Sumire...things have changed...it's all too cruelly different now...." she said as it saddened her so while thinking about Isabelle and Kira, "Indeed, Isabelle will surely kill herself if Shin was to at harm. This is bad, I don't even want to think about it..." she sighed again, which must have been the fifth time today. "And Clarisse is just too different now...I guess even though they're twins, the incident must have made them go separate ways...but what Clarisse's doing is just plain wrong, she's using the man as much as he's using her for his desires."

[Kan-Chan]

"You can say THAT again...not literally." Sumire smiled as she joked a bit.
"Here...I'll make lunch...." Sumire said and in minutes...there was lunch...
"Haha...this is just....I'm sorry...I shouldn't have made them...it's just a h-habit..." SUmire apologized as she looked at the table...that was filled with Haru's, Rin's, Kira's, Shin's, Touga's, Clare's, and all their favorites.