I dunno what to do.
I feel kinda jammed shut to be quite honest.
Ma brother is on a warrant for his arrest by the police.
But he had beaten me up, and now i've got a big huge bump on ma forehead all bruised up.. and he kicked ma ear so hard, that ma ear drew loads of blood and i cant get the stain away from ma skin cos its too painful.
he broken ma £120 fone & said that he aint buying me a new one.
he keeps doing this to me, nd ma mom does jack all about it.
he said i was lucky to not of been kicked and to beaten black & blue by him.
he says that he's glad about it & he's proud - & if he could, he'd do it again to me.
so many people hate me at the moment.
I cant stand it. So i'm wantin to kill maself.
And I'm to that boiling point now where I have to let go,
I wanna jump and kill maself, but I'm too scared.
I hate ma life. I really dont want it.
So many people wish me dead, even ma mom said she doesnt wanna know me no more after what happened between ma bro, cos she thinks i'm making it up, that my bro wouldn't hurt me, she keeps sayin, maybe you fell and knocked ya head on sumthin - i tried to tell her that i could tell the difference between falling on somethiing & someone actually kickin me.
Ma bro always does this.
SO i told him, that i'm going to the police bout him cos i'm sick off him beating me up all the time & then ma mom coming home from work to stick up for ma bro
So I'm at the libary now, homeless cos ma family wants nout to do with me anymore - they say that to thum i'm dead.
I dont see the point anymore.
I've been refused by the homeless department.
I have no real friends.
So i have nowhere.. & no-one.
I really am alone in this world & out for meh self.
I finds it pointless to keep carrying on when i have nout left!
please, someone - find me an answer, please.. i'm on the urge of killin meself.. i would of done it by now.. if it wasn't the fact I'm scared of actually known i'm gonna do it.
AAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRHHHHHH!!!!! This post has been edited by Silently Broken on Oct 18 2005, 08:14 PM