Well, no one can really tell youanything that'll make you change your mind, because at the end of the day, it si really your decision. Try figuring out what feelings trigger your...urge to do things like this.
For me its usually when people are angry at me, a severe drop in my mood, stuff of the sort. When there are htings I cant handle that;re going wrong, thats when I resort to binging and purging.
Is that the case with you? If so can you talk about it with someone? Maybe post here often, letting out everything that you think and feel. We're trustable folks, ya know
It really helps if you have some sort of outlet for intense emotions, because I think thats what this is. Metaphorically at least.
Take care of yourself and lease, please try your best not to hurt yourself. The symptoms wont show right away...but you'll notice the changes.