i'm such a dick.
i'm falling for the boy i dumped a year ago.
when i'm not with him i miss him like hell.
we've been just friends sinse we split,
but we do have sex and i cuddle him way too much.
i cant believe i dumped him.
thing is, i'd be happy for things to stay the way they are now.
but hes a good looking boy, and hes going to get a girlfriend, i can see it now.
thing is, i want him all to myself.
but what if he rejects me?
my ego will be bruised and our friendship monged until we forget i messed up again.
jesus christ, i'm so confused.
i just..want him?
god. i wish i was someone else.
i see him with another girl,
my heart goes KILLHER.
i end up going somewhere else and beating the crap into someone thats done nothing.
i have the slight suspission i have a anger problem.
I'm new...and I suck at helping, so...sorry if any of this doesn't help ><
If this boy you love so much, think about everyday, and hurt for so much...if this boy makes you afraid that one day he'll leave you constantly, I don't think he's right for you.
It's hard...so hard, to break up with someone you knew and loved so much, and then see him fade away to someone else.
If you're having sex with him, and he doesn't consider you his girlfriend, I don't see him respecting you the way you should be. =[
Wait! I just reread your post...You dumped him? Well...hmm...
I still think he's being a bit of a butt for having sex with you, and being with you, and recieving all these flirts without asking you out again. Maybe he's scared...but um, hasn't he recieved enough hints?
Maybe..if you're brave enough, definately try asking him out again, if you care for him this much...
Rethink your relationship and see if he's worth it. Remember why you broke up with him in the first place, and think carefully, because in the end, it's your decision, and I'd be proud of any decision you make. =]
that is a really hard decsion to make hun and my heart goes out to you. You need to decide soon and make a strong decision. If you are going to be just friends then I would suggest the sex and things like that stop or it is only going to confuse you and be hard on you. If you decide to go for it talk to him about it a real friendship can survive this if it doesn't work out.
love and hugs