I am new here and came here because I think maybe other people who experience major depressive episodes will understand and maybe be able to help. None of my family or friends has any first hand knowledge of what it feels like, so when I have an episode they have no idea what to say to help me. Usually they say the worst thing possible like, "it's up to you to make yourself happy" and make me feel like a big failure as a human being for not achieving happiness on my own. If I can't call on those closest to me when I get suicidal urges who can I call on? I do have a good therapist and she has been a blessing. She doesn't judge me for my feelings. Why can't those closest to me just understand that what I need from them is not to make me happy just to be assured that I'm loved and cared for and to remind me why I should choose life. I am so tired of the emotional suffering and isolation I feel. :unsure:

I am sorry to hear about your problems, I hope we (people on this forum) will be able to help.

hello and welcome to the form..i hope you can find peace here..and well i just if you ask your parents & friends to visit sites that tells how to deal with depressant people....
take care of yourself