After all the dep-talk, it's time to post something positive again.
Recently, I started posting my stories also on another forum and it felt like such a boost to read that they liked them.
I don't know if the other writers here have experienced this, but here in The Netherlands, you often get to hear that you're abnormal when your hobby is writing. I heard that all of my life to a point where I felt the need to hide my second biggest hobby.
And mom and I also had another heart-to-heart. I told her about my worries when it concerns "that stomach" and she turned kind of pale when I told her that I've been tasting and eating blood again. In the few weeks before I crashed the last time, I had the same and she was glad that I filled her in this time, so she would know what to do.
She understood that I was down and worried and now is trying to reach the doc so she can push for a quick operation before shit blows up again.
This proves Jason's point, tho. If I had taken that shortcut a few days ago, I never would've known that this was going to happen.