Description: *might trig*
Pins And Needles - December 4, 2006 01:55 AM (GMT)
All right, so here is the deal.
Being as young as I am, we are learning about eating disorders in health class. While they don't trigger me, it's very hard for me to deal. Often times, I sit there in class with tears rolling down my cheeks, my fists clenched.
I can't deal with this.
I want to, I know I should. But, it hurts...it opens up parts of me I had closed away because they turned me into someone I didn't want to be. People are starting to notice how upset I'm getting.
They have wrong ideas about eating disorders, and I want to shut them up whenever they say "it can't happen to me". But, I keep my silence and often end up crying through my next class.
I think I need a hug. =(
sunrisequeen - December 4, 2006 04:26 PM (GMT)
God......Iknow all too well what you're talking about.
Its just so irritating when people think that you have to be a lunatic to do have this happen to you.
Girls in my class make fun of this stuff.
Theres even one girl they call "The r**e girl".
I mean, come on!!!! Thats not a funny or nice nickname to give someone!!! They just made it up because she walks around like shes tired and weak and sick n all :angry:
I dont know what to say though. I can usually keep my cool, or I block out whatever anyone says.
PM me if you need to talk.
rockeimisu - December 5, 2006 01:06 AM (GMT)
*gives hug* :hug:
I really don't like people like that. They don't get how awful it can be for people who are dealing with that crap.
What I do when people talk about that and SI is pretend they're not there or analyze their voices or count all the spots on the desk. You know, just something that'll keep your mind off of it.
Just remember that this won't last forever.
:hug: feel better.
invisible-one - December 5, 2006 08:59 AM (GMT)
I used to hate it too.
When teachers spoke of the type of girls that are "vulnerable", people used to look at me. Everyone knew it, they just didn't want to say it.
When they talked about the risks and whatnot, I wanted to cry.
Try breathing slowly while they're talking about this stuff. Tell yourself that you know, and that gives you power over it. Try focusing on something completely different. And maybe talk to someone afterwards? (I always went straight to my mom)
Pins And Needles - December 6, 2006 02:16 AM (GMT)
We learn about these things, and my teacher always goes: "...and this happens to people who have bad self-esteem, body image, and usually don't think too high of them selves."
It hurts, because I know that all those things I did- skipping meals, exercising, trying to lose weight I didn't have, etc. I did all those things, and that makes me weak.
We went over what could have happened to me if I hadn't started eating again. I cried the whole way through it.
Thanks for all the support, everyone. ^^ I'm gonna get through this.
OhioAngel - December 6, 2006 04:32 PM (GMT)
I don't know much about eating disorders and I can only imagine what it's like to have to sit through a class and listen to them downplay it. I hate how people stereotype when it comes to ED, LD, or SH. Why can't people understand that this can happen to anyone?
I am glad to hear that you are being strong through this. Like the others have said, maybe focus on something else or try to tune it out if it gets to be too much.
:group: :hug: :group: :hug: to you!
rockeimisu - December 7, 2006 01:21 AM (GMT)
Hey, that doesn't make you weak, it makes you human.
Just keep hanging in there and you'll get through this.
Pins And Needles - December 11, 2006 11:37 PM (GMT)
Whew, and the unit is OVER!
I made it, with no one the wiser to my past problems- other than those who already knew. ^^
Thanks for helping me through this, guys. I owe you all one, so feel free to call on me next time you need a buddy. :kiss2:
sunrisequeen - December 12, 2006 06:13 PM (GMT)