All my life, my eating has been organized around my stress levels. A boy at school says I'm fat? I won't eat for a day because I worry. I have a ton of homework? Skip out on dinner, no time. Have to make up a quiz? Skip breakfast studying, lunch making it up, and dinner worrying about it. So you see, now that school is beginning again, the stress comes back. And I am so scared that I might lapse back into it. And then I might go back to being an anorexic and cutting. I'm scared, and not much scares me.

I was down to 60 pounds. The scariest time of my life. I don't want it to happen again. I'm scared and I'm lonely. My family had no idea of all my problems. My doctor helped me this time, and didn't tell my family. I just hit 100 pounds this summer. I don't want to lose how far I've come.

I'm scared.

As long as you are really afraid of going back, you wont, because your fear will hold you here.

As for the stress, I know what you mean. Skipping breakfast and brunch is a usual routine for me. But since there are 4 meals, I still have 2.
How about eating while you are working? It can be quite pestering, but you can have lunch or dinner without stopping what you are doing (tests, HW etc).

You can try to find alternatives for skipping meals. You can talk to friends or dance or sing or something instead of doing what you do now. Its hard work letting go of "the habit" but you have to agree, it feels a lot better when you're well.

Wishing you luck.
:hug:
PM me if you ever need to talk.

The stress from skool is really hard to get over. Espically if its skool work. Its one of the reason that started my anroexica the first time in my life. Try to not the work get in your way that much. I know this post wasnt much but I hope the little that is in here might help


Best Wishes
~{E.J.}~

Thanks guys! I'm feeling a little less scared about school now.

Grr.....
My first day of school sucked :'(
I miss my friends!!!!

Aw. :hug:

I started a new shool :unsure:

Lotsa love Safrina xxx <33

Things are going wrong.

Very wrong.

Kids called me cutter behind my back.

Someone asked to see my scars.

I skipped 2 days of meals.


HELP!

:SL:


YOU DO NOT LISTEN TO THEM

What the fuck are they gonna know?

This is you! Fuck what theyre saying behind your back.

Carry on the way you're going you're gonna undo all the good work youve done. And youve said yourself you dont want that to happen.

*hugs* Sorry if that sounded harsh but missing 2 days of meals is a bit silly.

Its a new school, there will be different people make friends with the GOOD ones. They can help you more.

I bet you theres at least 2 other people in your new school who have cut, or have an eating problem

Always here on PM

Love Gem XxX

u need to talk to staff at the school and see if they can help u with ur workload. talk to ur dr about relaxation techniques. also see if the dr can help draw up an eating plan to help u eat regularly. xxxx

Um, well. A lot has changed.

I told my parents about everything. About my cutting and not eating. About everything. They agreed to get me help, and are letting me choose. I'm happy, I guess. But they want to put me on meds, and keep bugging me about it.

And I just gave in.

But, other than that, things are going better. People are still saying stuff, but I ignore them now. Thanks to the very nice advice that put me down to earth. The advice I got from this site. *coughcoughGemcoughcough* But, I'm not gonna say names.

I guess things are looking up, but I'm still feeling lousy.