Crying Out

Crying Out
[A poem dedicated to Brittany Fairley]

A friend drug me down
And pulled me into my hole
She didn’t mean to
But she was crying out for help

I had to let go
My life couldn’t afford
To be brought back
To the past and yet survive

She was hurt and
Felt like I betrayed her
And it hurt me but
I eventually moved on

A couple months later
My friend returned to me
With a big problem
Making me feel to blame

I did blame myself
For something I had no control
Asking lots of questions
I tried to move past it

Finally I gave it all to God
And tried to fight it
So very confused with
What was going on

I responded to this friend
Not thinking about
What she might think
Or how she would respond

She knows that I know
And I don’t know what
To do and what to say
So I sit here, silent

No matter what, she will
Feel used, rejected and worthless
So I feel like I have to give up
On everything with her

I don’t want to be
Pulled down by her again
It is to risky and
I can’t take a chance

Britt, I love you to
Death and you mean
So very much to me
I wish you could see

See the light of God
The hope that you get
God is there for you
And he will never let you go.

Dedicated to Brittany Fairley, an online friend that I had to let go because she pulled me back down into my sins and she ran back to me but I can’t help her, because I am not in the position…but I still love her like a sister…

At first I thought it was something form a book, that was awesome!

I love it